Я не покончить с браком, хотя и знал, что он мой друг

Instead of feeling a certain disgust with my husband and having divorced him when I found out that he was fucking my best friend, I started to feel more desire and even more desire to give it to him, including to show him that his wife was much better than her friend on top of his cock and that I could go back to being his first option right away to think about emptying the bag.